So, it's been a while. It's June already. The June in which it's, you know, already halfway through the year that we call 2012. Mind blown, I'm telling you.
But yeah, I have some thoughts that I would like to share. And as always, the old report, yeah, I need to blog more. Essentially I have this schedule worked out in my head right now where I'll blog every Sunday. I've started this new thing on YouTube where I'm adding old clips from my computer up every Sunday, which I call LifeVlogs. If I always blog while the videos are uploading, than therefore I blog once a week, which, as it always seems, my ultimate goal. So yeah, we're gonna try this out.
This one is going to be more of a rant than anything. Really.
First, I would like to talk about Jane Austen and how much I admire her. First off, she's a writer, a writer whose books I first read in seventh grade and now have read all of collection. And I adore them all (although I won't deny that I hold Pride and Prejudice above all others.) I admire any person who is a writer and who writes novels that me me feel something--like any good book should do. Second off, I find it beautiful that Jane Austen let all of her characters have a happy ending because she never got to her happy ending (you'll understand why if you read up on her or watch Becoming Jane, she was a great woman). And third off, I admire the fact that Jane was never married and she lived out her dreams 'by her pen' when she was born into a society where women were typically expected to do nothing more than find a rich, good husband and bare children. Jane did none of this, she broke society and lived off her own written word. She was strong for that and I yearn so much to be liker her.
Now, ranting time. I was told recently by an adult who thinks they know everything of the world that I'm taking on too much in my life with dreams. Okay, so I want to write, be an ESL teacher in foreign countries, act, and maybe chase a storm or two. Yeah, if I want to do that (and I will) then I am going too. Yeah, said person also told me that I remind her of her daughter who had all these dreams until she met the right guy, got married and settled down and had a family.
REALLY?!? Like, WTF, really? I though society had matured a lot since Jane Austen's time and that a woman could do a lot more in life than just settle down with a good husband and have kids? It really upset me so much that I wanted to slap her, yeah, I really did. I'm not usually a person who has physically violent habits, mostly just those of a mouth. In all honesty I'd rather call someone an ill-mannered tub of guts then slap them. But no, I felt the urge to inflict pain upon another person.
First off, I would just like to state that nothing will ever make me give up on my dreams. No man, no force, or no 2012 apocalypse will force me to give up on them. It's my life and it's what I want to do with it and I don't intend on wasting my life by following what others say. And I just don't understand how anyone would want to waste something as the precious one life that they have. God, follow your dreams, don't be a tub of lard. And really, I'd rather not have someone telling me to be a tub of lard when I know of a world so much more beautiful.
Second off, I have told this person time and time again, that I don't want to have a family. I have no urge to have children, I have no maternal feelings and I certainly know that I won't be a good mother. And I can hardly imagine myself married to someone. It's seems to me that I've always imagined my life single (and even now where I've been a serious relationship for nearly nine months) I still imagine myself as single through my life. It's not that I don't love people, it's just it seems like I'll be held back by anything and everything. As said before, no force will stop me from reaching my dreams. So the idea of 'settling down and having kids' is not appealing at all.
And lastly, I can barely even feel bad for her. She doesn't understand me. She got pregnant right out of high school, got married, and has had a husband who has always taken care of her. Her only thoughts have never been farther than that of what's playing on TV or of what her two daughters are doing. And I don't understand her either, like, I can't just can't wrap my mind around why someone would want to do nothing in their life other than be a wife and mother. But I respect her, it's what she chose and I'm not going to tell her to change her life. But I wish she respected me enough not to tell me to change mine.
And yeah, that's it, rant over. I'm going to live like Jane Austen, and live by my pen and dreams, because really, that's all I want to do with my life, is reach my dreams.
And on another subject. I'm seriously considering publishing an e-book. It's just a thought but I want to make it happen.
-Fin
Keshia
#36/100 Books in 2012: Write Good or Die
(I feel as though 100 will never be reached)
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