Halfway trhough August already? No, really, I'm having trouble wrapping my mind around this concept. Today is August 15th, this is what I'm writing on August 15th. Because it is, and it's scary. It's also scary that 2013 is nearly over. But that's cool. That's cool. This has probably been the fastest year of my life, to be honest, and I really don't think it's the whole current time thing. You know, the thing where the time you're living in is the fastest and so because of that it seems the fastest. And I know this, because 2012 felt significantly slower than 2011 or 2010. But then my concept of time is all strange.
I've been in a slump lately, a slump of bad proportions. This slump is basically came about from feeling useless as fuck about everything. It happens almost every summer, a summer lull that ha sbounced back and forth across every summer of my entire life. Reason for the summer lull have included lack of school. I think I've made it clear in this blog before just how much I love school and how much self meaning it gives to me, so I won't give into that. There's also the fact that I have worked this summer more than I ever have in any summer of my life. (Edit: I worked more the summer of Washington but that time was such a confusing clusterfuck of things) And lastly is that I always make these empty promises ot myself during summer, like I'm going to write so much, I'm going to read so much, I'm going to get so fit. Every damn summer I make them and every damn summer I don't keep them, in fact I probably recede on them. I usually am only active at work, so I get fatter. And even though you would think,that logically having more time, I would read and write more, but somehow I don't. And this summer, this is has probably been one of the of the worst summer lulls of my life (Washington was worse, along with the summer between eighth and ninth grade, it being the worst). And I don't know why. I have this particular way of hiding mysef away from the world in music and pretending I don't exist. I've been doing that so much this summer.
And school starts in eleven days. And I just can't wait for it. Because I'm tired of slumping.
Fin.
-Keshia
