Dreaming Wide Awake.: The Spectrum of Us

Okay, so I've quoted him in here before but I'm going to do it again. Joss Wheddon is a genius and one of favorite Buffy quotes ever is in the musical episode where Dawn states the hardest to do in the world is live in it. Which is true, but what makes it so hard to live in it is the misunderstandings between people.
Humans really are these unique minded things, and the reason for most of our conflicts is from not understanding each other. I think it's too hard and we often forget the trouble that everyone deals with everyday. We are too wrapped in our own incomprehension of others and their own incomprehension of us. We're all very selfish, who like to reign the anthem of 'No one understands me' all the time. Or at least I do. I'm the most selfish person I know.

And somehow, I came up with this idea about humans. It's probably something you've heard before. I think human beings live all across this broad spectrum, it's dark at one end and light at the other. None of us is in the dark and none of us is in the light, instead we all wander around somewhere in the grey. And I think along the wondering among the spectrum we sometimes bump into or cross paths with other people. And sometimes because of these bumps the people within the spectrum like to stay close to you. These people become your friends and family, the ones who stay around you, the ones who are in the same general shade of grey as you are. If anyone, in my mind, ever existed in the exact same spot as you on the spectrum then they would understand you. Their mind would be in the exact same context as you. But I've never seen an example of that before. Instead I think they can understand parts of you and float around you, sometimes even aligning with you but never being in the exact same spot. And as of late I've come to realize how little I understand about my world around me and the friends I have in it. Before, when I imagined myself in this spectrum I imagined myself surround by my friends, aligned with a few but not all, and all of them just wandering in a general location near me. And now, when I think of it, I see no one in my general area. My friends are still there but when I think of them, they are miles away, too far away for either of us to reach each other. Too little understanding of each other. That's about it, the more I understand myself the more I understand that no one will understand me. And that's it, I just felt like raising an old flag.

And also, I am still happy. I realized how depressing that sounded, but it's not. And my friends, I love them. I may not understand them and they may not understand me but I love them either way.