So to be honest I almost forgot about BEDA, I only just remembered while I was taking a shower earlier. Also, whilst I was taking a shower I realized I'm still terrified of getting water in my eyes. When I was younger I squeezed my eyes shut so tightly it hurt and refused to go into a pool without goggles. I still do this, I'm still terrified of water. I close my eyes tight, I don't get why, I just do. But, this however, is irrelvent to today's blog post.
Today after work I sat down with one of my managers, Tiger. Tiger is on the younger side, super tall, and flirts with every girl that is within a five foot radius of him. For some reason Tiger and I started talking about our view on relationships, I'm not sure how we came to this suject. But basically, after I explained my view, how I don't believe in marriage and blah, blah, blah, Tiger said I was like the perfect girl. My only thought was that Tiger doesn' really know me. But then I thought about it and realized that I have in fact been told this before, soon before I left Alabama. So, this gets me thinking? If I'm such a perfect girl then why aren't guys pining after me? One thing probably has to do with looks, I'm not ugly but I'm not really pretty either. Like most other things in my life (height, weight, intelligence, voice) I fall somewhere in the average catergory. Another reason, I decided, is because I'm too annoying. I know myself, I know I'm annoying and I know that I am irksome to some people. And lastly I think it's because I'm too unique. Well, unique is the nice way of putting it. I'm wierd, this I know too. But it's me and I made it clear this past year that I'm not changing or anyone. Though of course, in reality, I don't care at all. Right now I'm not dreaming about love at all. I'm dreaming about my dreams. So guys who think I'm perfect can just stay out of the picture.
An besides, who wants a girlfriend who still afraid of water?
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