Okay so in my school they have each club/team pick out one to three seniors that have excelled above others in the past four years of school. Today in drama Mr.Browne announced the senior superlatives for drama. I am one of them along with my friend, and the ultimate theatre techie, Jacey Potter. I was so happy when this was announced that I literally wanted to scream, which I did, several hours later when I was in a room by myself so that I wouldn't look like a freak. It's hard to believe that I'm a senior superlative, even harder to believe that Browne has apprently had me picked out since the start of the year and he was just looking for someone else to go along with me (or at least insder sources *cough* Victoria Gillet*cough*). I mean I know I've worked my butt off for the drama department for the past four years but it's still hard to believe something like this. I think to to start believing more good about myself.
In other news:
I turned eighteen last Thursday. The actual day of my birthday was terrible; a combination of a broken laptop, teachers that didn't understand, AP classes that are absolutely too hard, and adults that try to get into the business of people half thier age. But then my friends made up for it with an incredible weekend. I'll post some videos of that weekend up once my laptop gets fixed and I can edit through them.
But while it was great I realized today that value the opinion of my friends too much. I know that's a terrible thing to say, because my friends are amazing. But I still don't think I should be so influenced by what they think of me; half the time I drive myself into a deep hole of worry because I'm care so much about what my friends think of me. I cherish their opinions, but sometimes it's hard because they hurt me with their opinions, and I'm sure they don't know it......or maybe they do and they simply don't care. I'm in that deep hole right now, if you can tell. It's times like this that make me wish Washington was here today, only 116 more days until I leave this state.
I also realized I never write in this blog enough. My last entry was (technically) last year! HAPPY 2011!I also thought about how,as one of my new year's resolutions, I have started a youtube channel involving beauty and makeup; I have the link to this blog on the channel but I have nothing even make-up related posted in here. So from now on I'm going to post makeup stuff in here along with whatever it is that I ramble about now.
Quote:
"Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else."
- Judy Garland
You are first-rate, Keshia!
ReplyDeleteLove yourself because you love yourself, not because other people do!
But we're still gonna love you too:)